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Interrupt
I knew I was struggling, I just didn’t know how much I was struggling until I took a moment to stop and pause. The last couple of years have really been a lot. My anxiety has definitely increased. I knew I needed to figure out the cause of my heart palpitations. They seemed random. I could tell that when I felt out of control, they were worse or increased in frequency. So I started to interrupt the cycle. Just a little at a time. I started with a daily devotional book, Jesus Calling. Then I introduce another daily devotional via the Bible app on my phone. Then I introduce mediation.…
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Present
For as long as I can remember it has been a struggle for me to fully live in the present moment. I know that one of my issues is that I love to have control over my life. I am a planner, so this is just naturally built into my being. It is a hard thing to break free from. Since I need to have control, I start planning everything and running through every scenario that could potentially happen. Yes, it is exhausting! And often times it leaves me paralyzed. I can’t think any more and I can’t move forward. It brings to mind this verse in Matthew 6:34 (NLT):…
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Be a Unicorn
She made her way into the crowd of people. Recognizing only one face in the sea of many, she glanced down at the ground. Thoughts rushed into her mind like: am I supposed to be here? Is this the right place and time? I hope can find someone I know. Then her heart started racing and her palms got extremely sweaty, which she then inserted into her pockets. Soon, she made her way to the nearest wall and leaned against it, hoping that she could blend in. The awkwardness crept in even further as more and more people entered into the space. She desperately searched the crowd for a familiar…
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Life On Hold
In this season of waiting, how much are you moving to line yourself up with God? How much are you pouring yourself into His work and plans for your life while you wait for that thing that you desperately want? Do you pursue Him with all your heart, mind, and soul? How much of your attention is taken over by this thing you want to pursue? There are many forces in this world that tell us that what we have isn’t enough. If you are single, go pursue a relationship. If you live in a modest home, go buy a bigger one. If you own a car that is over…
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The Smallest Things
It was a rough start to my day. I couldn’t find my work badge. I searched and searched and searched for it. I checked every room in the house. I checked my purse, twice! I checked my car, also twice. I even checked by the mailbox. No such luck. I even stopped by the one place I visited the day prior to check their parking lot. Still nothing. I made my way into work without my badge. All I could think about once I got up to my cube was where was my badge. Eventually I made my way to the security area to have a new badge made. The…
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The Perfect Moment
The other day it happened to be raining out. It was wonderful to have the rain seeing as it has been very dry lately. At one point, I noticed the sky getting brighter. I quickly ran over to the window to check for a rainbow. Sadly, I was disappointed, but I knew in my heart that there was going to be a rainbow, but I was just too early. You see, a friend of mine, her grandma was in her last days, so I knew there was going to be a rainbow. God has shown me rainbows before around the time of people’s deaths. It continued to get brighter outside…