• Fear

    Mistake?

    Today I had a conversation with my counselor and it was mind blowing how I have been framing things. I get caught up in the what if’s, particularly the negative ones. She tried to walk me back to why this frame of mind existed. We did get there eventually. But let me back up for a minute. Yes, I am seeing a counselor and I admit that I need help to break free from my anxieties. In particular there is one I am trying hard to break free of: moving out on my own. I get trapped in the cycle of all the stuff that may not work out in…

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  • Living

    Reflecting

    Across the water I look and I see the sun reflecting upon the water. It is so beautiful, so refreshing, and rushes in calmness amongst my soul. I look deep within myself and wonder what it is that I am reflecting back to the world. Do they see you? Do they see kindness? Can they see my joy? What is it that everyone sees when they look at me? Maybe they judge me because they know that I love you. Could it be that they can’t see any of you when they look at me? I wonder how I am reflecting myself to the world. I look back upon how…