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Back Soon
When I first started this blog I had so many ideas and was ready to take on the world. I’m going to admit, blogging is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Right now, I am at a place where I need to take a break for personal reasons. I hope everyone who reads this understands that I will be back once the symptoms I have been experiencing diminish. I will be taking a break from posting and spending a lot of time online for awhile, since I have been experiencing some symptoms related to computer usage. I encourage each of you to take some time…
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Open Door
How is it that you reach out into so many people’s lives knowing exactly what they need to pursue a life with you? My walk towards you wasn’t straight and definitely not perfect. It started out with a prayer asking for you to save my uncle from his cancer. He didn’t make it and I was pretty angry. I didn’t understand how this man I had just gotten to know could be taken away from me so quickly. I didn’t know that I had opened up a door in my heart for you. The door was a smidge open. Occasionally the door would open a bit more as I saw…
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You
I can’t wait to share with you what is coming. Next week, I will be making a special post towards the end of the week. I am so excited to share it with you. In honor of my anniversary of giving my life to Him, I will reflect on a bit of my journey to this point today. He is so great. Here is a bit of inspiration into what prompted me to start this blog. In the quietness of my heart you were there even before I knew you I feel you through the warmth of the sun and the coolness of night I hear you through…
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Still Growing
I am still growing. You reminded me of that as I was scrolling through my Pinterest feed. I am okay with that. Growing means I am alive. Growing means I am changing. Growing means I am learning. Growing means that you care. Most importantly, growing means that I am getting stronger. I am strong because of you. You fill me up with your strength. You care enough to remind me just how important I am by sending me little encouraging words through social media. You met me right where I am at. Through self-reflection, I find you there coaching me through those tough moments. I beat myself up through comparison…
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10 Minutes
10 minutes. The clock shows that the time is 2:50pm. 10 minutes. 10 minutes to prepare myself for the phone interview. It doesn’t feel like a lot of time, but as I sit there waiting and reflecting I can’t sit still. I move about the house looking to fill the time, even though I know I should be just reflecting on the job I applied for and the phone interview which will start in 10 minutes. I have been feeling so lost and a complete mess. So I took some time to focus on you during this 10 minutes. I close my eyes and begin to pray. I ask you…
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Finishing Strong
I lace up my tennis shoes and head out the door to my first running training course with my good friend Mary. Mary and I had decided that we both wanted to run to help us get more fit, but neither one of us were runners. I had wanted to run a 5k for a while, but lacked the motivation to get off of the couch. I knew that the course would help me to train and keep me accountable toward working to my goal of running a 5k. The training program began pretty simple. Walk for 9 minutes and run for 1 minute, repeating this two more times for…
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Rejected
I check my phone hopeful that there is a message waiting for me. Nope, not yet. I try to get back to work, but am distracted by what has been weighing on my heart, the hope of a job offer. I open up my main program at work and work on the next request in my queue. I know that I am not doing my best work, but I try to determine what the customer has requested and translate it into what I am working on. No luck. I eagerly check my phone again. Still nothing yet. I get back to work and start a new task which I think…
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Baptism: Freed From My Fears
My hands are shaking. My heart is beating faster. My thoughts are racing a million miles a minute. I search for you, but I can’t find you in this place of darkness and utter confusion. Where are you Lord! I need you now, in this place, in this moment. How at this moment of my greatest need is it that I can’t find you. Do you even care that I am drowning? Does my problem even matter enough for you to reach out your hand to grab mine to say that it will be okay? What more do you need from me to just tell me that you care? I…
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In Alignment
I recently was reflecting back upon the time in my life when I was applying to colleges. Despite the fact that was a while ago, I clearly remember the Holy Spirit nudging me about a Christian college. I shrugged it off. Being the “smart” high schooler I was I thought I was smart enough to make my own decision on this very big life decision. So I applied to the schools I saw fit and in line with my plans. Eventually I landed on one. I made my way to that college in the fall. I felt out of place and just couldn’t fit in. While I was there God was still…
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The Perfect Moment
The other day it happened to be raining out. It was wonderful to have the rain seeing as it has been very dry lately. At one point, I noticed the sky getting brighter. I quickly ran over to the window to check for a rainbow. Sadly, I was disappointed, but I knew in my heart that there was going to be a rainbow, but I was just too early. You see, a friend of mine, her grandma was in her last days, so I knew there was going to be a rainbow. God has shown me rainbows before around the time of people’s deaths. It continued to get brighter outside…