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Seen – Part 2: Seeking
Walking through that dark path that night, I felt so confused and disoriented. Something felt off, but I just didn’t know what it was. Tonight I pray. I pray asking you to save my uncle. Tears run down my face as I ask you to save him from this horrible disease. I am not sure how to approach my first prayer, so I found the one thing that points me to you, a bedtime prayer on my bedroom wall. I use this as my guide as well as asking you to save my uncle. I am so afraid that I am going to lose my uncle. My fear becomes a…
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Seen – Part 1: Unknown
Seen is a four part series. Stay tuned for all four parts. I can’t see. It is just so dark. I walk along this path with no light in the darkness of night. The clouds are covering the stars in the sky. How can I continue if I can’t see the path ahead. I continue on the path that I have followed for so long. I approach a fork in the path. I stand there not knowing which way to take. It is so dark I have no idea which way is the right way. I stand there hoping that something will just come to me and I will know…
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Life On Hold
In this season of waiting, how much are you moving to line yourself up with God? How much are you pouring yourself into His work and plans for your life while you wait for that thing that you desperately want? Do you pursue Him with all your heart, mind, and soul? How much of your attention is taken over by this thing you want to pursue? There are many forces in this world that tell us that what we have isn’t enough. If you are single, go pursue a relationship. If you live in a modest home, go buy a bigger one. If you own a car that is over…
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Anticipate Him
Laying in my bed with three fleece blankets and my quilt all on top of me I was very snuggly. However, I was awake. The clock across the room was staring back at me mocking me with its bright red numbers; 2:34. I laid there for a bit longer. Then I decided to plant my feet on the ground and make my way to the bathroom. Once I was done, I made my way back to my snuggly bed. I laid back down slowly. Once back in my bed with all four of my covers on top of me I could feel that my nose was dripping a bit. Worry…
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That Mountain
Off in the distance, I see this mountain. It looks quite large. As I approach, it is a lot larger than I though it was. Initially, I thought I could make it up the mountain when I saw it from the distance, but as I approached closer, I realized that it was going to be near impossible to make it to the top of the mountain. I camped out at the bottom of the mountain for days. I debated if I should try to make the accent up the mountain. I finally decided to try to make my way up the mountain. I felt like I had the right gear…
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Reflecting
Across the water I look and I see the sun reflecting upon the water. It is so beautiful, so refreshing, and rushes in calmness amongst my soul. I look deep within myself and wonder what it is that I am reflecting back to the world. Do they see you? Do they see kindness? Can they see my joy? What is it that everyone sees when they look at me? Maybe they judge me because they know that I love you. Could it be that they can’t see any of you when they look at me? I wonder how I am reflecting myself to the world. I look back upon how…
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You Are Enough
A few weeks ago I became too obsessed over a guy. Yes, wow, a guy! He had shown interest in me at the time. All I could think about was the possibility of going on a date with him. It went even further, I started thinking about kissing him. I hate to admit, but I thought about him more than I did God. What is even worse is that I have done this before. The last time I was obsessed with a guy it was way worse than my current obsession. I thought about dating him for years. I even reached out to him to see if he was interested.…
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It Is All Yours
Open your eyes. I am here, right with you through it all. I came into this world just like you did. I paid the ultimate price. But you question me. Do you not trust me? How can that be? Every moment has been planned by me. My grace covers your sin. You have all of these questions. I gave you all of this free will. I can’t explain it to you, but yes, I do question. I don’t always understand who I am. Through your lens I can see a bit of who I am. I am who you say I am. In you, I am made new. You have…
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Safe in the Drawer
In the morning I wake up and I look at myself in the mirror. I see my incredible green eyes. These eyes let me see who I am. I see myself in the mirror everyday that I forget that my eyes have little freckles. I was reminded today by a co-worker that I have these neat little freckles in my eyes. How unique are my eyes? But I forget that I have this feature. It is just a part of who I am. I am reminded often of this song by Hillsong Worship called Who You Say I am. In my head the words “I am who You say I…
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The Smallest Things
It was a rough start to my day. I couldn’t find my work badge. I searched and searched and searched for it. I checked every room in the house. I checked my purse, twice! I checked my car, also twice. I even checked by the mailbox. No such luck. I even stopped by the one place I visited the day prior to check their parking lot. Still nothing. I made my way into work without my badge. All I could think about once I got up to my cube was where was my badge. Eventually I made my way to the security area to have a new badge made. The…