Growing
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Facing the Mountain
Life often puts mountains in front of us. Sometimes we face them head-on. Sometimes we look for ways around them. And sometimes we just ignore them all together. That’s what I’m doing right now. I’m ignoring the mountain that’s in front of me. I don’t want to face it. I don’t want to climb it. I don’t even want to see it. It’s hard to face. It’s too painful, but at some point I’ll need to face it. I’m going to have to climb it and not look for ways around it or pretend it’s not even there. So I’m taking baby steps to try to climb the mount because…
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God’s the Gardner
God’s the gardener and He needs to pick the weeds out. The weeds of doubts. The weeds of the lies that you tell yourself. If you let Him pull out the weeds from your life, there is more space for His love and more space for Him to help you along the path that He has prepared. Maybe you feel as if your garden is full of weeds and nothing good can ever come from it. Let Him work in your garden (heart & mind) to restore your bed to a more natural way. Letting God is difficult when you don’t feel like you measure up or if there is…
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Evict Anger
What anger do you need to evict from your life? Do you need to forgive yourself? Are you holding onto a grudge from many years ago? It’s time to let those go. How do you let go of the anger that you hold deep within your heart? You can pray to God asking him to clear your heart of this anger. You can focus on the positive moments. You could spend time in nature. There are so many options. Holding onto anger is not good for your soul. It takes up room in your heart and brain that could be replaced with so much more than anger. If anger holds…
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Rescue Me!
Below is a genre of writing I haven’t tried before, song lyrics. I had some lyrics pop into my head a few weeks ago and I just couldn’t let the start of what was in my head just disappear. They are still very much in progress, but I’m sharing what I have today with you. I have highlighted in orange the lyrics that I started with. You take me as is Broken in pieces I think I’m not enough I think I’m weak What would I give to have some love What would I give to have some strength Rescue Me! Rescue Me! Your grace covers it all…
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Seen – Part 4: Always
Before you were born, I knew you. I made all of you and knit you together in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13). I know the number of hairs on your head (Luke 12:7). I know all of this, because I created human beings in my image (Genesis 1:27). I know when you sit down or stand up. I know your thoughts no matter how far away you are. I see you when you travel and when you are at home. I know everything you do. I know what you are going to say before you say it (Psalm 139:2-4). I know so much about you. When you feel weak, I…
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Seen – Part 3: Found
I finally chose to take the path that was lit up. I had been searching for a long time to identify that joy, the one that my classmate Lillian had. I searched long and hard. Finally, I decided to take the leap and put my faith in Jesus. I shared my decision with a few close friends. They understood. They knew me. My friends helped me along my journey initially, as they were all I had. A few months later I finally shared my decision with an adult, but in writing. I was a bit scared to do this, but the topic in English class that day hit me and…
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Seen – Part 2: Seeking
Walking through that dark path that night, I felt so confused and disoriented. Something felt off, but I just didn’t know what it was. Tonight I pray. I pray asking you to save my uncle. Tears run down my face as I ask you to save him from this horrible disease. I am not sure how to approach my first prayer, so I found the one thing that points me to you, a bedtime prayer on my bedroom wall. I use this as my guide as well as asking you to save my uncle. I am so afraid that I am going to lose my uncle. My fear becomes a…
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Seen – Part 1: Unknown
Seen is a four part series. Stay tuned for all four parts. I can’t see. It is just so dark. I walk along this path with no light in the darkness of night. The clouds are covering the stars in the sky. How can I continue if I can’t see the path ahead. I continue on the path that I have followed for so long. I approach a fork in the path. I stand there not knowing which way to take. It is so dark I have no idea which way is the right way. I stand there hoping that something will just come to me and I will know…
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Life On Hold
In this season of waiting, how much are you moving to line yourself up with God? How much are you pouring yourself into His work and plans for your life while you wait for that thing that you desperately want? Do you pursue Him with all your heart, mind, and soul? How much of your attention is taken over by this thing you want to pursue? There are many forces in this world that tell us that what we have isn’t enough. If you are single, go pursue a relationship. If you live in a modest home, go buy a bigger one. If you own a car that is over…
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You Are Enough
A few weeks ago I became too obsessed over a guy. Yes, wow, a guy! He had shown interest in me at the time. All I could think about was the possibility of going on a date with him. It went even further, I started thinking about kissing him. I hate to admit, but I thought about him more than I did God. What is even worse is that I have done this before. The last time I was obsessed with a guy it was way worse than my current obsession. I thought about dating him for years. I even reached out to him to see if he was interested.…