At 37 I never thought I would be here. Single. No children. No family. It hurts. It is so painful. And sometimes lonely. It’s been awhile since I have had a good cry about this fact. Today, yes, the tears just kept coming. I don’t have some magical wand that will make my emotions just disappear. The desire is so strong and I have wanted this for so long. But honestly, it might not even happen. How do I grieve that lost opportunity? I can’t, because its just too hard to bear the pain. Right now I don’t feel strong. I feel so weak, so powerless because I have absolutely…