Present

For as long as I can remember it has been a struggle for me to fully live in the present moment. I know that one of my issues is that I love to have control over my life. I am a planner, so this is just naturally built into my being. It is a hard thing to break free from. Since I need to have control, I start planning everything and running through every scenario that could potentially happen. Yes, it is exhausting! And often times it leaves me paralyzed. I can’t think any more and I can’t move forward. It brings to mind this verse in Matthew 6:34 (NLT): “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” What is even worse is that I will get caught in this cycle over and over again. All of this leaves me not living fully in the present moment that is right in front of my face.

Recent events in my life have caused me to attempt to shift my perspective. I am working on trying to live fully in each moment. Not the moment that just happened or is going to happen. I am challenging myself to not look back too far and not look to far ahead. It isn’t easy! Focusing on remembering to just be in that moment has done a lot for me. The worries that I once had, yes, they are still there, but being in that moment instead of thinking too much about all that could happen is easier and not as tiring. It allows me to take in everything that is happening. And even better, I get to enjoy that moment. Living in the tomorrow always is so tiring and you can never know exactly what tomorrow will bring. In James 4:14 (NLT) it says “How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone.” You should choose to live every moment fully since you don’t know what the future could possibly bring and you don’t know how long you have in this body of yours. Even better yet choose to live out this truth in Philippians 4:6 (NLT) “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and then thank him for all he has done.” This is what I have been focusing in on. Every “good” day I have, I will thank Him for the good from that day.