Surrendering Control

The past few months have been a struggle for me personally. I have spent several moments with God in the waiting room or doctor’s office in the past few months. More than I have wanted to, but it has been necessary to try to track down what is happening with my body. I have been struggling with pelvic pain off and on for a few months now.

Every doctor visit I have had I have spent time in prayer while waiting for the doctor to enter the room. And it has given me so much peace knowing that He is in the room with me every time I have to go through my history again. He was even there for me as I had the pelvic ultrasounds. Nothing remarkable was found on the scans….so that just leaves me, yes, still in pain without any answers.

What do you do when you don’t know the answer? Pray! Pray! and Pray some more. I have been inviting God into so much more of my life. I have invited Him into my doctor’s visits, which is many at this point. I have invited Him at work while I am in pain. I have surrendered so many areas of my life over to Him now.

After surrendering over more and more of my life over to Him, I realize now that I should always be doing this. Not just when I need Him to help me through something, but I should be giving Him every part of my life. Through my latest struggles I have learned that inviting in Him has provided me with peace and has allowed me to not worry as much about the future anymore. I know that He has me every step. And through everything that I go through and will go through, He will be there through it all. He gives me the strength to push through the pain and to continue to trust that He has me. I’m holding onto the promise that He will help me through whatever I face. The latest attitude I have chosen is to live just in this very moment. Not one moment ago or not one moment soon. Just here and now. For me, right now in that moment, it is helping me get through this struggle. And of course knowing that He is there through it all.