Mistake?

Today I had a conversation with my counselor and it was mind blowing how I have been framing things. I get caught up in the what if’s, particularly the negative ones. She tried to walk me back to why this frame of mind existed. We did get there eventually. But let me back up for a minute. Yes, I am seeing a counselor and I admit that I need help to break free from my anxieties. In particular there is one I am trying hard to break free of: moving out on my own. I get trapped in the cycle of all the stuff that may not work out in my favor every time I get close. It has definitely gotten worse the longer I stay put and the more I “hear” the negative thoughts. She asked, why do you think this is? I really had to think.

It took a few moments to get there. But, yes I found some defining moments. I found one that I say is a mistake, but is it? Just a point in my life where I made a choice based on my life and comfort level. I made the choice to go to a college based on silly reasons as I look back now. One, I chose it because I graduated near the top of my class and didn’t want go to just a two-year school. Another because what I was really hearing God say was where I was supposed to be, I was scared of it. I didn’t want to admit that I wanted to be at a Christian school and I didn’t have the necessary pieces to fulfill their application. So I made another choice. Looking back, it wasn’t wrong. It just wasn’t the right choice for me. I learned that as the first semester rolled on. It didn’t feel right and ultimately I knew the right choice. I still was scared. And I put off the “true right” choice. I delayed, but it ached on my heart. Eventually, I applied. And yes, that was where God wanted me to be. The other choice I often thought of as a mistake or misstep, but it wasn’t. It is part of the journey. I built my faith up stronger at the first college. I learned more about who I was and how to live out my faith.

God has every step we take. We may see something as a mistake, but you know what I think, it is God’s path for us. He gives us that free will and welcomes us back into His arms when we misstep. You may make a wrong choice, but don’t see it as a mistake. Find a way to turn yourself around and put yourself back on the path with God. It is the direction you are pointed towards.

Is everything you do pointed towards Him? Are you listening to what He is saying? Do you believe what He says about you? You are wonderfully and fearfully made. In His image. He gives you grace. There is so much love flowing from Him. And He knows so much about you. The number of hairs in your head. He knew your name before you were formed in your mother’s womb. Wow! It is amazing. The path is laid for you. Designed for you and you still have free will for your choices. Truly amazing! Don’t ever think that a misstep you made is the wrong choice. There are many right choices. Each is a different path and can give you different experiences. The path you take gives you just the right experiences for you and your future.